The Transformation from Trauma

In many ways, one of the most destructive relationships in my life provided a catalyst for deep transformation to occur.

It brought to the surface all of the pain I had hidden even from myself, and it revealed lifelong patterns of caretaking and putting other’s needs and desires before my own well-being.

It provided a lens to see where my own lack of discernment made me place empathy above seeing other’s dishonesty and manipulation.

It re-connected me with the ways I often ignored my body’s intuitive sensing of what was not healthy or safe for me.

It made me see how being surrounded by trauma my whole life developed an adaptive mechanism; a cloak of invisibility that made me believe it was not safe to be seen and heard, and to just BE me in the world.

It brought necessary rage to the surface at being criticized and manipulated as soon as I began to enforce my right to my own boundaries.

It began to dismantle everything that prevented me from BEing a fully-embodied, empowered self.

It did not just change me, it alchemized me from the inside out.

As the internal false structures began to fall, so did the false masks of the people and situations in my environment.

My rose-colored glasses shattered, and they were meant to, so that I could rebuild from a clear lens of my intuition, heart, Soul, and all of the things that truly matter when we free ourselves from toxic power and control.